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[Swift is still learning how to do this. Whoever he misses is greeted with a default message.]

The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the tone.

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From:

swiftlet

[It's a while before Swift answers. And even then, he's not really sure what to say.]

What do you want me to say, Seel?

From:

dreamsallotted

I'm not sure. You don't have to say anything. Just say you'll forgive me?

I'm sorry I hurt you.

From:

swiftlet

[Sigh.]

You always are. But you keep doing it.

From:

dreamsallotted

I know.

Would you believe I really wanted you to be safe? As crazy as it sounds, I did it for you.

I know that doesn't excuse it.

From:

swiftlet

Safe. Locked in my room with bruises because I disagreed.

From:

dreamsallotted

Safe. Protected. You had everything you needed in that room.

But I'm still sorry. I know I'm not really helping myself.

From:

swiftlet

No I didn't, Seel.

I know you are. But I can't say that it's alright.

From:

dreamsallotted

I know. It's not all right. I understand if you want to stay away.

If you want I can leave for a while. If you'd like the place back.

From:

swiftlet

I don't know. [He probably should, but also he really doesn't want to.]

I don't want to be alone, but how am I supposed to trust that you aren't going to hurt me again?

From:

dreamsallotted

I don't know. I'm not sure how to answer that. I don't want too hurt you.

We have two bedrooms. I can sleep in the other one. And you can have the key to the bedrooms.

From:

swiftlet

I don't want to have to lock myself in, either.

I would like nothing more than to just be with you without worrying about whether what I say to you will result in another bruise. Every time I thin kyou've started to learn something, you go right back to it. I'm trying to trust you, but you're making it incredibly difficult.

From:

dreamsallotted

Maybe you should stay away then, until I can figure it out myself.

From:

swiftlet

You don't want that either.

From:

dreamsallotted

No I don't. But I don't know what else to suggest.

Besides hit me back?

From:

swiftlet

No. That wouldn't help anything.

From:

dreamsallotted

Then I don't know what to suggest. I don't know what to do Swift.

From:

swiftlet

I don't either, Seel. Nothing has worked so far.

From:

dreamsallotted

I'll do whatever you tell me to. I just want to fix this.

From:

swiftlet

[He almost responds with "do you" but deletes it before he sends it. Of course he wants to.]

I know you do. I'll try to think of something. You might want to take some time to do the same. You should know best what would help you.